So my friend decided to let me borrow her phone. I was immensely grateful but when I started noticing things.... I began to wonder...

Like how my location settings was on for everything but when I looked at her things....her location wasn't there. How I would leave something in the living room...go back...and it wasn't there....but someone would say....ohhhh it's right there after coming back in! As if it blended in with the couch. How this new friend was doing things for me yet doing them out of making herself look good. Having her give me a temporary phone but when I called to get access to it, my email was completely changed on the account.

A lot of weird things/mind games have been happening. At first, I would truly rationalize and look from her perspective. However, it got to the point where she would say nice things to my face but her actions spoke otherwise. I kept trying to make sense of it but I realized that some people may not like me.

Having someone express their anger from someone else onto me....and their worries without even an ounce of consideration for my very real life worries. From past situations and such! Like a safety issue....locking your door or even expressing that I have had people come through doors in my sleep which is a very rational fear since it happened. Not locking doors or not having every camera on is very suspicious....Your camera is on for your belongs/area but not for mine?

I don't like mind games and people who take advantage of my kindness. I clean/organize but when someone expects me to do it.....I don't like that. I have been nothing but sweet to her/her home/family. I make good morning notes every morning, wash the dishes, cook for the little ones...etc. I do as much as I can because I grew up with a single BLACK mom. So I know how it is.

In close, I don't like that people think they can take my kindness for weakness.

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Logging into my accounts on her devices, I see that the whole conversation isn't even there. I brought up that someone she was living with was negative and that's why she is projecting her anger and calling me "negative." I see right through you.

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Let's hope I can actually get back into my account even though I have all my info. Written down and in several places. As I read it when I log in so I know I am right. Some by memory because I do it so often. 

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TBH I am letting go of material things so if the little bit of things I  have there are gone, misplaced, or damaged.....I do not care. I just know that I had to get this out there today. 

 

I have given her many times to calming come to me so that we can talk things out. She still plays these games with me. 

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On the positive side, I know where we stand and this has been another learning lesson. Becoming stronger and wiser everyday(: